Friday, September 16, 2005

trying to get over it

I feel as if I'm loosing my mind. Things have been difficult here lately for me. I broke it off with Eric, as you know and I haven't been the same. I'm just flustered and my posts have been stupid. Ok, well someone suggested bunnies frolicking for a topic to write on. I was thinking, there's an image. Yeah, that's going to help me get it together. Anyway...I go to google to find an image. Did any one go there and look before you put that thought in my mind? Well, here it is...Type it into google...you'll see. This is the first picture on the google search and it isn't helping me forget the fact that I don't have a boyfriend anymore.

A friend told me that as a rule the amount of pain you feel is in direct proportion to the love that you felt. I do believe this. I've remained friends with most of the guys that I've dated and this one has been the same way. However, there was some time of no contact before just being friends. I think maybe he's contacting me too much, too soon and it's not letting me get my bearings straight.

I hope that I've not upset anyone with my chaos. Please bear with me. This too I will get through.
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6 comments:

Buffalo said...

Upset? Me? Never. I do care how you feel though.

9/18/2005 12:08 PM
teri said...

Ahhhh.... That's how I'm feeling. I need a trip to the beach...soon.

9/18/2005 12:30 PM
Alex Pendragon said...

Ev ery things gonna be all right, rockabye, rockabye.......

9/18/2005 4:52 PM
teri said...

Yes michael... I know...I'm being a baby. I need to find my "fuck you" attitude. But I am just a softy in side.

9/18/2005 10:43 PM
Buffalo said...

I'm thinking this is how it all works, Teri.

People come and go from our lives. Perhaps they need to find us for a moment. Perhaps we need to find them for a moment. Lessons to be learned and experiences to be experienced.

The trouble with all that coming and going is that it sometimes happens before we would like - or maybe long after we would like.

I can't help feeling there is more than coincidence at work in all of this. Not that I believe in predestiny. We all have the personal choice/responsibility thing going for us.

Maybe right now you need some free time to sort out what all you've been learning. Maybe your soul mate is right around the corner. Maybe a lot of things.

But for sure, you will deal with whatever happens in your life. You have no choice because you are that type of person.

And that, sweet lady, is a damned good thing.

9/20/2005 3:51 PM
Jim said...

Good song Michael. Did Shawn Mullins have any other hits? That one's so memorable it's hard to recall any others. But enough about that.

Teri, you made your decision for a reason, right? Sometimes no contact is required, otherwise the cancer still feeds.

I'd say "take some long walks", but I don't want you to see any more rabbits. (Gotta love the Google Images. . .)

9/21/2005 11:04 PM

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